another good day.

i had another great day! except today was spent alone. i had some time to think about the things that are really bothering me ... things that i needed to change, work on, and most importantly self acceptance. i love myself. my eyes, my smile, my body, even my feet. cause they're cute (: i'm a size 1820 & i'm not ashamed of it anymore. i'm going to start working with what i have & making it fabulous! because i am fabulous! and i love it! i have a great family, a loving best friend, and an amazing boy friend. there is one problem though, that has been holding me back. a few days ago i saw the boy who took something away from me that meant the world ... my virginity. and seeing him again, it took me back to a deep dark place that it took me so long to get out of. after a few days of sleepless nights and talks with montez .. i realized i'm bigger & stronger then him. and i refuse to let him take anything else from me. and so i decided to get myself backk. the fly, sexy, i don't give a shit what you think onee. & i'mma be happy. and live my life. because i'm done living for other people. i lost to many years living up to everyone else standardss ... i'd much rather just be janel<3